It's been awhile since I have written, obviously...I kind of have forgotten about writing in here. I was pulled over tonight...TWICE. The second time the cop told me how his son just graduated from basic. He let me go when I told him I was pulled over just a little earlier. Damn I would like a beer right now. This is all I am gonna write for now, I don't feel like writing to much right now...
I went to a baseball game at TEP yesterday. It's my pleasure. I absolutely love going there to watch a game. It doesn't matter who is playing. There is just something about an outdoor game. I bought two tickets for next weeks game. I don't even know who is playing. I tried to get my favorite seats but, had to settle for close enough. Before the game Saturday I am helping out with the special olympics. I think that will be interesting.
Picture this: Ryan wearing a tuxedo top, blue jeans, Cubs ball cap; Sarah D in a fancy sexy black dress with band-aid bra; Me in a sexy pin stiped DK suit; Walking down Alvernon with a Fry's grocery cart filled with 35 lbs of ice. No wonder I often hear other people say "white people."
Went to another Wedding yesterday. I think it went very well. Wills sister did a good job of setting the place up. It was a nice little location also. Sam wound up getting pretty drunk which caused some problems later in the evening. Ya know I don't really feel like writing right now so Ima go.
Cuddles the seeing eye horse. Just know that somewhere, out there, there is a miniature seeing eye horse named cuddles that wears sneakers and is potty trained. I wish I were joking. What is this world coming to?
I don't know why this bugs me so much. The girl won't even give me the time of day. I guess the hardest part of coming to grips is realizing that the girl I fell in love with in Vegas stayed in Vegas. Sam told me that one day she would miss me and regret losing me...I think that is something you tell to someone to make them feel better.
Enough of that poop. We are going to see Jimmy Eat World tonight! It is going to be so much fun. 311 is coming to town soon! I can't wait for tonight!!
I jumped in the river and what did I see?
Black-eyed angels swimming with me
Went to Ryans' Aunts' wedding Saturday night. Despite not knowing a soul there I managed to have fun. Honestly the wedding was gorgeous. And kinda big. Ryans' grandma paid for the whole thing I guess, musta cost a fortune. Oh and one-up this...How many times has Ryans' grandma pinched your ass? I met some interseting people. Particularly Ryans' step-mom. Ryan hasn't spoken to highly of her and I know first hand how step-moms can be. So all night long I had been plotting to jump his step-mom. Then I saw her cannons and decided I didn't want to get my ass kicked infront of some potential lays. So I told Ryan I am going with mace and that's it. I wound up talking to her at the bar for a chunk of the evening. She was interesting. I mean other than the fact that she resembles Ripley from Aliens. We shared a lot of the same views and beliefs. So it made for a good conversation. We talked about everything from bums to bud... Then there was this stiff there. This dick head. I met him the night prior to the wedding at Tens (strip joint). The grooms' men were all real quiet and just sitting there, staring at the whores. While the girls would dance for them I would watch them and not the whores. It was hilarious. Their reactions were very easy to understand- "Boobies, boobies, ooohhh boobies!" I guess the stiff makes around 250 g's a year. That explains the amount of dances he bought. He probably new what most of those girls high-schools were by the time they left because they chatted so much. I guess when you are a money grubbing whore it makes it easier to sit in some ugly guys lap and pretend to be interested. Ryan and I stayed back-There are a couple of them whores that want me- so naturaly I had to stay. This one brunette, I don't remember her name, asked if I wanted a dance. I declined because I didn't want to catch anything. She was and ideal looking women. To me at least. Not plastic at all. Beautiful long brown hair. And a face to dream about. I felt compelled to tell her how gorgeous she was.
"Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, and have not charity, I am become as sounding brass, or a tinkling cymbal.
And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries, and all knowledge; so that I could remove mountains, and have not charity, I am nothing..." I don't agree with that quote from the bible. You don't have to be charitable to be anything.
A moon full of stars and astral cars
All the figures i used to see
Talked to Sylvia today. I wonder what is going on in her head. I wish I could see. I wish she would open to me like she did once before. I understand what she is going through-I just don't know what it is like. We are perfect for each other. Just not right now. She has to go through this. (Even though I am here for her but she choses to act towards me as if I were no one to her-she will do this on her own.) I mean no one can lift the responsibility from her. Everyone keeps telling me there is someone out there that much better...They have a lot to hurdle. I don't know why I feel like I am in a rush to find someone. I wish I stumbled along Sylvia when she was ready for me...Not temporarily...But ready for ME. Despite being pissed that she hasn't spoken to any of the people that care about her since she got back (whatever...) I was happy to hear from her today. I think we talked for a couple of hours. (That's not that unusual for her and I, we can talk for hours....) I got pissed when she told me that until Jeff gave her dirty looks she waited to show him "fuck off." I figured that it didn't matter what happened between Jeff and I. I expected her to take my side without question. I understand why itwould have been difficult if this were an argunment between Sam and I but, not betweem someone she all ready knew was fucked up. Sam used to joke that I wasn't allowed to talk to Jeff becasuse he hated Sam. Although Sam wasn't joking, I kept from Jeff. Sam was my closer, better friend. It pissed me off when Sylvia said "I was like fuck you when Jeff gave me dirty looks." I said to her "It took Jeff giving you dirty looks to stop talking to him?" I know her and I hand a VERY unique and unusual begining but, if you started out the way I did (believing in her), wouldn't you expect her to take your side without question? Is that why you keep telling me there is someone else better out there? Someone who has my back without question? One day, one day...
All my lovers were there with me
All my past and futures
And we all went to heaven in a little row boat
There was nothing to fear and nothing to doubt
So tonight Justin tells me that my dad knows of this page. I will no longer write in here if he is reading this. If I want him to know any of it I will tell him. It's funny I haven't told him about this site. Justin says he didn't either. So Dad were you surfing sites that J has visited? and WHY? Do me a favor and don't read anymore.
